OUCH......

To the person who commented to me in private, ouch.... It has taken me this long to get back here because I was not sure how to respond. I have very mixed feelings about your comments. As a parent you want your kids to be happy. This is a very basic parental instinct. I do want to add that there is a child involved in this breakup. Having said that, I want my daughter to follow her bliss. If I have been hard on my daughter it's because I want her to make decisions out of clear and thoughtful thinking. I am not sure that she is doing this now. I am sure there is another guy in the picture, which is complicating matters. If after the requisite trying, counseling and talking period, she is still sure she wants out that is fine. But you just can't walk away on a whim. In retrospect, I might have shot from the hip on the last post. I was blowing off a little steam.

I do appreciate the comments if nothing else they make me think!

Things have let up a little or I just have a better outlook. Hey the days are getting longer, that's always a good thing. Running out of time, till the next time....

Life carries on.....

I didn't realize how sexually frustrated I was until I reread my last post. Wow. I was really uptight. I have since connected with my gay friend who I am growing very fond of. I went over his place this afternoon and had some great passionate sex. He is a great guy who is comfortable in his skin and I think I really envy him for that. He is very attentive and gentle. He makes me feel very comfortable.

I have been dealing with some minor frustrations on the new job. Because the the economy has affected the building industry, my new boss informed us that things are "slow" right now and in order to keep us working we can help him with his home renovation. I am really not into it to tell ya the truth. But it does keep the paycheck coming in. I did not spend two years in a trade school to do home renovation. Unfortunately I have no choice.

On the home front one of my kids is having some family difficult and is talking about breaking up there marriage. I am so fucking angry at them for not even trying to work things out. Not to sound like an old fart, but it seems if things get tough with the younger generation they bail immediately. They have no commitment to anything in there life. If something doesn't work out, get a new one!

I realize my moods have been somewhat affected by the winter, even though it's been mild. I am not a cold weather person I like the warmer weather. The short daylight hours definetly affect my moods.

I rarely talk about my wife here because I don't feel I should. I will make an exception this time. I know I am always complaining how humdrum our sex life is but to be fare she has her own issues to deal with and I don't make it easy for her. She is a very emotionally strong person for which I am grateful, because she holds it together when I meltdown. I just feel like I had to say that. After I reread some posts I realize I can be very hard on her in this blog.


Well, that's it for now.


On a more upbeat note, how about those Giants!!!