I am my own worst enemy...

I don’t have as much time as I thought I did when I started this blog. So it’s been hard to get back here to keep it updated, for that I apologize. Things have been going pretty well lately. I have been working a lot of overtime so I have not had a whole lot of time or energy to pursue sex. I will be taking a week soon for some R & R with my wife in a warmer climate. Interestingly enough or I should say true to form I have already put an ad on craigslist to try to hook-up with a guy in the area I am going to. I guess I am a slut. Hey, I always admitted to liking sex with guys.

The situation at work has quieted down quite a bit. If you recall I played with fire and got burned. I have had little contact with the guy who outed me, really only to rip into him about what he did to me. I am ashamed to say, I am still sexually attracted to him. The sex was awesome (and I never use that word). In my weak moments, I think maybe we can get together again for sex. It’s really up to me. I doubt very much it will happen but being the age I am, I never say never. What the fuck am I saying here!!! I am fucked up.

My relationship with my wife has been pretty good. The sex part not so good, It’s been few and far between. The few times we have had sex, have been very mechanical and I hate that. I could just as well jerk-off. I will keep you posted on how my vacation is going as I will be connected most of the trip. Not for work, just for pleasure…..

It is a Good Friday

So today is Good Friday and good it has been so far this morning. After more then a few hectic weeks things are starting to settle down. My health has improved and work seems to be going ok, although busy. My relationship with my wife has been also improving mostly because I have made the extra effort to make it so. I am always surprised at the outcome of things when I put in extra effort. You would thing that I would have figured this out by middle age.

After a long time (I think months) I have finally made a hook-up. I occasionally hook-up with a younger guy who is great in bed. Sometimes it’s a quickie and some time not. This last time it was not a quickie and boy was it good. When I go a long time without male to male contact I forget how good I feel afterwards. As I said in previous post I love sex with woman but also love it with guys. I feel sooo relaxed at this moment, and that would be because we just finished a little while ago.

Looking forward to taking a trip to a warmer climate in a few weeks, it will be nice to get out of this crappy weather we have been experiencing lately, also looking forward to spending some down time with my wife. Still have not had the conversation with her, but am getting closer everyday. Well, till next time…